My Mom

I have been extremely stressed out about nursing school and I'm not even there yet. Money is a big issue. I will have to cut back to part time at my job. Since our 2 awful roommates moved out (partly because of me, mostly because they were just awful) I've tried to pick up some of the bills but I know it's made money extremely tight for Mike, and with this change it is going to make things even harder. He has got a second job going with the radio station he use to work for and that helps, we may even need to find another roommate. I'm trying to get my car paid off, which will make it livable. I did all the math today and devastatingly realized that i will still owe about $2000 at the end of the year. My mom has repeatedly told me that she will loan me any money i need but it's so much money to borrow. My brother's girlfriend decided to start school (without consulting anyone first) and is relying on my mom to pay her bills, so i feel like she is already doing more than she has to but still tells me i can borrow the $2000 or however much i need. My mom is the most selfless person i know and it breaks my heart to add to her load. My mom does everything for everybody. She is the best example of kindness i have ever seen. She likes doing nice things for people and i have learned so much from her. When we were growing up she never bought new shoes so my brother and I would always be able to have what we needed, she would just resole her old ones and keep wearing them. She took in my Aunt Ambie and her daughters when they needed it, she's taken care of my Uncle for the past several months, she always makes sure my brother and nephew have everything they need, and she never asks for anything in return. I walk through day to day life knowing that she is always here for me and will do anything for me and I hope she feels the same way about me, I'd do anything for her too! She is my best friend and I don't know what I would do without her!

Thanks for everything Mom! I love you!

Nursing School AHHHH!

I have been accepted to SLCC Nursing School as an alternate for the upcoming fall semester or spring 2010. After much stress and deliberation I have accepted the Spring 2010 position. A big thanks to Janine and Julie at work and all the talking me into it that they did today! I was ready to decline it until they gave me "the talk", oddly enough, the same talk I get from Amy and Carrie on a regular basis, well after much thought (and tears) I have finally decided to do it! I spent a good deal of my morning discussing this decision with the nurses I work with, the office manager, my boss, Carrie, Mike, my Mom, and EVERYTHING is falling into place, I feel like that's a good sign, and its meant to be. So as of January I will be officially on my way to becoming a real nurse! I may be stressed and grumpy the whole time but I'm doing it! I've waited so long for this and it's terrifying that its actually here. I've wanted to be a nurse for as long as I can remember and I cant picture myself doing anything else. That is what made my decision the easiest and feel I'd regret turning it down. So here we go!