My Mom

I have been extremely stressed out about nursing school and I'm not even there yet. Money is a big issue. I will have to cut back to part time at my job. Since our 2 awful roommates moved out (partly because of me, mostly because they were just awful) I've tried to pick up some of the bills but I know it's made money extremely tight for Mike, and with this change it is going to make things even harder. He has got a second job going with the radio station he use to work for and that helps, we may even need to find another roommate. I'm trying to get my car paid off, which will make it livable. I did all the math today and devastatingly realized that i will still owe about $2000 at the end of the year. My mom has repeatedly told me that she will loan me any money i need but it's so much money to borrow. My brother's girlfriend decided to start school (without consulting anyone first) and is relying on my mom to pay her bills, so i feel like she is already doing more than she has to but still tells me i can borrow the $2000 or however much i need. My mom is the most selfless person i know and it breaks my heart to add to her load. My mom does everything for everybody. She is the best example of kindness i have ever seen. She likes doing nice things for people and i have learned so much from her. When we were growing up she never bought new shoes so my brother and I would always be able to have what we needed, she would just resole her old ones and keep wearing them. She took in my Aunt Ambie and her daughters when they needed it, she's taken care of my Uncle for the past several months, she always makes sure my brother and nephew have everything they need, and she never asks for anything in return. I walk through day to day life knowing that she is always here for me and will do anything for me and I hope she feels the same way about me, I'd do anything for her too! She is my best friend and I don't know what I would do without her!

Thanks for everything Mom! I love you!

Nursing School AHHHH!

I have been accepted to SLCC Nursing School as an alternate for the upcoming fall semester or spring 2010. After much stress and deliberation I have accepted the Spring 2010 position. A big thanks to Janine and Julie at work and all the talking me into it that they did today! I was ready to decline it until they gave me "the talk", oddly enough, the same talk I get from Amy and Carrie on a regular basis, well after much thought (and tears) I have finally decided to do it! I spent a good deal of my morning discussing this decision with the nurses I work with, the office manager, my boss, Carrie, Mike, my Mom, and EVERYTHING is falling into place, I feel like that's a good sign, and its meant to be. So as of January I will be officially on my way to becoming a real nurse! I may be stressed and grumpy the whole time but I'm doing it! I've waited so long for this and it's terrifying that its actually here. I've wanted to be a nurse for as long as I can remember and I cant picture myself doing anything else. That is what made my decision the easiest and feel I'd regret turning it down. So here we go!

No Kids for Me

This last Friday I went to Glitter toes at Jen's and got home around midnight and went straight to bed, I was so tired! I woke up at about 2am to Ando itching and freaking out, so i put him outside to go potty and he just starts barking. I got really mad because I didn't want to piss off my neighbors so I was trying to pull on his chain and it cut the hell out of my pinky. (We are trying to get our grass to grow in the backyard so Ando gets to go in the front yard tied to a chain, its awful, he's so yappy!) So i get super mad at Ando and make him stay downstairs with Mike and Parker (who were still up playing computer) so i could sleep. Mike came up to bed at about 4am and was really worried about Ando. His eyes were all swollen, the insides of his ears were red and he had bumps all over his body.
My vet told me that white schnauzers can have more allergies (which the breeder hadn't heard of) and told me that i could give him children's benedryl if he ever had a problem. So Mike and I run to Smith's at 4am, then come home and have no idea how much to give him, so i just got about 1/2 teaspoon (Thanks to the syringe i got for the bird it was easy) and gave it to him. Then i stayed up for another 45 mins to make sure he didn't stop breathing or something. He woke up itching again at 8am so i called my vet, they told me to double his dose of benedryl and call back if it didn't help. Sure enough at 1130am he was itching like crazy again so we had to take him in. They gave us some antihistamine/steroid pills and he is totally better. He has deadly farts and drinks and pees a lot from the meds, but otherwise is just fine. I was so worried and sleep deprived from all the worrying. I don't know how all of you with kids do it! One night and I was a wreck! I just don't think I'm cut out for all that! So I'll just say NO to kids!

Baby Birdie

Last week Mike found a baby bird in our window well getting attacked by my neighbor's stupid cat, so he scared the cat away and rescued the bird. The problem was that we couldn't find his nest or mom anywhere and we certainly couldn't just leave him on the ground with the neighbors cat lurking around still so we put him in a box and ran to Petco to find something to feed him. $10 later I had a bag of baby bird food, a syringe, and strict, precise directions of how to care for baby birds. The girl said it was very hard to keep them alive and they need to stay very warm. So I was hopeful that I could give proper care until we could find a bird sanctuary to turn him over to. So i made him a little nest out of washcloths in his box, tried to feed him (which was impossible), and got my electric blanket on high and wrapped it around the box. My uncle (who use to raise falcons) said he was probably just too scared to eat so i should try in the morning. He did have matted feathers on his head from whatever trauma the cat caused him.
When i woke up the next morning and went to check on him, he was dead. I was so sad! I woke up Mike (I'm crying at this point) and he tells me that when he went to bed the night before (about an hour after I left the birdie) he was already dead. We both felt so sad and helpless. At least he didn't get eaten by the cat or drowned in the rain. I feel somewhat better knowing I did everything i could.



RIP Birdie

High School Graduation

At the beginning of June my mom and I flew to Oregon for my cousin, Kaylee's, graduation. It was a lot of fun and i got to spend time with my mom which is always fun. There was a lot of family there so it was nice to get to see everyone.


This is the crew that went on the jet boat tour down the Rogue River to Hellgate Canyon before graduation



This is the Jet boat


Sara, Dalton, Aunt Vonnie, Uncle Ed



Ashlee, My mom, me, Uncle Darwin
This was a 2 hour tour down the Rogue River and back. You get to see lots of wildlife and once in the canyon you are just surrounded by rock walls that seem to go up forever. It was alot of fun. The driver can do 360's in these boats (which gets you completely soaked), something that would be nice on a day that was 85* but this particular day it was about 60* and raining. We were so wet and cold by the end we just ran to the car! It was a really awesome sight to see and the tour guide was hilarious!



Graduation was cute. The graduating seniors walked under arches made of flowers, and all the decorations looked really good!


Cheers to Kaylee!


My aunt has taken pictures of every year at the first day of school, it was really fun to remember her at each year, its amazing how much we all change during that period of life.


My cousin Ashlee and me. I don't get to see her much but got to spend the weekend with her which was a lot of fun!

Congratulations Kaylee!

Free Root Beer Floats!

Sonic was a madhouse on the free root beer float night. The cars were backed up clear into the street but the line moved pretty quickly. The girl that helped us was in such good spirits even though I'm sure she was just so swamped. She even let me take her picture. Thanks Sonic!

Up!

We went to see UP! the day it came out but were afraid that there would be a hundred screamin kids in the theater.. so we decided to go to the 3D latest showing and luckily hardly any screamin kids were there! It was an amazingly cute movie! The 3D was fun, but i did have a headache by the time it was over. 3D for the win though! It was so fun! I'm down for watching all the pixar movies i can in 3D.

Here's Parker, he had to wear his 3D glasses over his real glasses